Happy Valentine's Day.

Last night was probably one of the worst nights I have had for a very long time. I had so much pain in my leg that it made me cry. The painkillers didn't touch the hurt, and I have no idea whether it was the sciatica, fibromyalgia or rheumatoid arthritis that caused the problem. All I know is I just wanted it to go away. There I was, a few days ago, saying how I hadn't had a flare up for ages and low and behold look what happens! I should have kept quiet. Anyway, I didn't sleep well and felt a bit tired today. Neil said I looked shattered when I walked through the door after work, and I felt it. I'd left work late anyway as I was helping a gentleman sort out something. He had Parkinson's and it was a slow process, but do you know what? I really enjoyed being able to help him, and even though I was tired I just kept wanting to make sure he was okay. He was clearly tired himself and finding it hard to deal with the problem but was very upbeat. I shouldn't even moan about myself as I have nothing as bad as Parkinson's. This gentleman has far more challenges in his life than I have, and yet he was full of dignity and calmness. I admire him very much as it is such a deliberating disease. 

So today is Valentine's day, and Neil and I exchanged cards this morning before I went off to work. As I've said before, we use the cards to just let each other know that little bit more how we feel about each other. It's been a tough few months recently but, even though sometimes I feel like a weight is on my shoulders, I love Neil and it is no hardship to try and support him through this time. That's what a relationship and partnership is all about. I tried to convey that in my card to him. The place where I work does, as many supermarkets do at this time, a 'Valentine's day meal deal', so I bought the food and Neil cooked it this evening. It was delicious, and I do now feel quite relaxed at last. We've scoffed a lot of very nice chocolates too, which was even nicer! 

So this is just a short blog tonight because I want to spend some time with Neil. In spite of all he has been though, and they way he has been feeling for a while now, he really is my rock. If you are fortunate enough to have a wonderful partner, or even a loved family member, hold them close when you can, and as often as you can, because we all need a cuddle or hug from time to time. Happy valentine's Day everyone.