The binge day.

It's my day off today. All I've done is eat all day.

Today has been a binge eating day. There is no other way to describe it and after reading all about it you will probably feel sick. I know I do and I've still got dinner to go yet! 

Every now and again I have a day like this, where all I seem to do is have a bit of food in my mouth constantly. I have to take thyroxine in the mornings for my under active thyroid. It means taking it at least an hour before I eat so it's no breakfast for a while. I left it an hour and then decided to have a mad moment and bake some cakes for Neil's lunch box before my parents visited. There was no time for breakfast. Maybe that is where I went wrong? They were due at about nine forty five so there was plenty of time to do it as it was only eight o'clock. Neil loves Bakewell tart so I thought I'd have a go at making one. Yeah well, my only advice to everyone is to make sure you have all the ingredients before you are half way through making it. I had everything but the ground almonds. Yes I know ground almonds are the basis of a Bakewell tart but I forgot! So began my tasting session. Was the jam ok? Yep let's try it. Okay that's fine. What about the no ground almonds in it uncooked sponge mix? I tasted it. Hmmmm I'll add some vanilla essence instead. How does that taste? Yep okay, it will do. I finished putting together the not quite Bakewell tart and put it in the oven to cook. In the mean time I made a spiced sultana sponge. How does that taste? Is there enough mixed spice? Nope, let's add some more. How does it taste now? Yep okay. Not quite Bakewell tart out to cool, spiced sponge in the oven. How does the not quite Bakewell tart taste? Let's cut a bit off and try it. Ummm not my best but it will do. How does the hot spiced sultana sponge cooling on the tray taste? Ermmmmm okay.

I felt a bit sick, but mum and dad arrived and we spent a few hours chatting and drinking coffee and my stomach settled. Anyway after they left I had to catch up on Game of Thrones. Yes, yes, I am a fan, and yes, yes, I had to get my lunch together to eat while watching it. An early lunch, but it would save me getting up half way through. I ate a lot. There is no doubt I ate a lot. In fact I stuffed myself. Still what is a day off work for?? Eating and watching tv because the weather is naff of course!

I didn't eat anything this afternoon. Oh wait yes I did. I had to watch another tv programme and ate some fudge. Only a  bit though. Then I made our lunch boxes ready for tomorrow. I made some salads and some yogurt style puds and tried a little bit of each. The cats got some sausage and so did I. 

So now I am sitting on the sofa feeling a bit queasy. Dinner is in the oven and I really don't want any actually, but am not quite sure how I will explain to Neil that he may be eating on his own. I've binged all day and eaten nothing really nutritious either. I don't really like the cakes I made which is a first for me. I'll stick to Victoria sandwich and fairy cakes next time! I don't know if I'll be able to face my lunch tomorrow seeing as I've tried a lot of it already today. I dread to think what Neil will think of the cakes I made and I may throw the rest away. It's better not to think of how many eggs I will have wasted. All in all it's not been a productive day, and rather different from yesterday. I worked yesterday, hoovered and cleaned before I went, walked round town, had a proper healthy lunch and ate a proper home cooked stir fry dinner. I have no idea what happened today but I hope it wont last. If it does I'll end up as round as a ball. 

Binge days are not bad if you don't do them all the time, or even that often! Once in a while is okay. Every morsel of food I put in my mouth today was one bit too much really, but it did feel rather naughty but nice at the time. So I say, hey forget it. We all have binge days. Binge watching tv, binge eating, binge drinking and binge whatever. It's okay to do it. It's okay now and again. Just not every day. Watch this space tomorrow...……