Tired, tired, tired! I'm tired therefore I am weepy. Not only that, but I ache today. If only I'd hadn't shouted out that I felt fine yesterday.
It seems I may have 'peaked' yesterday because today I am out of sorts. I did have a bit of a naff night tossing about though. I was thinking about the house my son and his wife have just moved in to, and so was a bit restless. It wasn't that I was worried about them though. It was just I was imagining how they could put their own stamp on it, and I really wish we had the money to help them do it. Oh for that lottery win!! I think part of me is so excited for them because I love decorating and titivating in our house. Neil always says he is grateful that our furniture has to stay pretty much in the same place or I would move it around all the time. I don't get bored, well not much, but I do like to ring in the changes. Just buying a few new cushions for the sofa, or maybe moving some ornaments make me happy. I like to 'dress' our bed too, with extra pillows and a throw, though the cats have a field day with them sometimes. I know it sounds a bit posh and it isn't at all, but I think it looks nice. In fact I'm surprised we can even get in bed sometimes as the cats like it so much. Our bedroom is quite warm too, so it's obvious really where all them end up. I'd love to put more cushions and throws on our bed, just like you see in some of the house magazines, but to be honest it is a bit of a trial to have to take them off every night. They don't mention that in any of those magazines!
We also had to go and take some documents to the Universal Credit place as they wanted proof of our housing costs. Just the rent/mortgage, you understand. Not any bills. It makes me wonder how they are going to work out what money we need to live on. I suppose I am now a bit worried, though I wont say that to Neil. While we were there we could hear someone really complaining and maybe that's playing on my mind right now? That person was asking how anyone expected him to live at all with the delay in his money (you have to wait five weeks for any benefit). In the end he just said to the Universal Credit agent that if he didn't get any money soon he would end up evicted from his home because he couldn't pay his rent. It was sobering to listen to, and reminded me that it is all too easy to ignore the homeless, but we are all one step away from it ourselves. Anyway, I felt a bit low when I got home and suddenly had a bit of a weep. I was absolutely mortified! I really didn't want Neil to see me like that as he has enough to deal with his anxieties and bowel problems, but he simply hugged me and said he was surprised I hadn't done it before today. I have once or twice, but never in front of him, since he broke down months ago. Anyway it's reminded me again that we are 'in this together', and his difficulties are mine and visa versa. After all, we've been married for almost 27 years now and have shared everything, from highs to lows, sideways and upside-downs. We're a team and always will be. ❤
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